I’d never heard sirens
come from the mouth
of a girl tall and flushed
like the beer she’d drink
to calm her nerves
before it was her turn.
and I’d never seen past
blurred lyrics on a screen
her fluent hand
hold the mic impassioned
as the final line of “Baby Come Back”,
revised into one extended vowel,
left her open mouth
and met me where I sunk,
like a submarine in choppy waters,
away from her vocal wobble
and into the beaten sofa.
I had a man who hit me. He was the father of my siblings, the husband of my mother, the force which drove me down onto my back in trembling fear. From the floor of my room I wrote him pleading letters. He crinkled his nose at my chicken scrawl. He crinkled the loose leaf in his palm. He demanded I rewrite them because a good girl writes well. A good girl practices. A good girl rewrites, rewrites, is rewritten to do things the right way. His way.
I had a man who owned me. He was the looming image of leather lingering before I slept. His hands were broad to hold the belt, yet I once saw them toss my sister to the air and catch her
the world tightens in my chest
“think of the suns submergence
– it never falters”
below it sinks to admire the horizon,
catch its breath,
you push my head from your shoulders
to rest it on the day.
is it certainty we take for granted?
floundering after the unknown,
when facts are opinion after time,
nature in their specifics
mourning, obscuring,
sending the same tasks
to lie at your feet day after day.
the world expands inside my mouth
”think of the moon as it has risen
– never lacking”
above it ascends to embellish our faults
release a sigh,
you rush to the corners of the doorstep
She ran her fingers through the water, disrupting the moon-reflecting glitter which graced the waves. Drops of luminescence clung to her eyelids as she floated and gazed at the auroral stars she dedicated her life to. The universe beamed into her through the dark of her iris and gathered somewhere amongst her mind to be remembered in vivid image. Every few moments of recollection she moved smoothly across the shimmering sea in a flick of motion. The hue of her tail was a deep mahogany like the wood of the telescope she grasped gently in her hand. Opaque collections of bokeh color adorned the curves of her scales. Mint green, baby bl
the ocean moves
crashing like the soul in her
flesh, the soft wood,
devoured by flame.
you can see her in the mossy rock
feel her in salt which coats your skin
speak her name with wet tongue
into mute skies
dripping with her absence.
take petals from her mouth
slip note under nose,
smell blood of many years.
you can hold her chilled hand
as spring shudders on the pathway
blows winds past the sea
to witness loss at his prime
beneath the pitted grass.
he said to her,
“not every man is the same”
yet she recounts
feeling the same touch through different hands
the same kiss through different mouths
the same lucid exclamation of infatuation leave the mind of each
who bedded her
who traced her
who slipped familiar fingers inside to explore a wet tundra of dream.
not every man is the same,
yet they all crave her body.
the same longing buried below the surface of their stare
the same begging crystallized in word
the same disregard for her emotion
for her love
for the tender which makes her.
not every man is the same,
but they begin to blend like paint water.
muddled and murky
too
she could feel confusion
lapping up her jaw
coating her tongue
settling timidly in the pit of her throat
like a few splashed droplets
before the turbulent storm
rather than anger she worried
for the health of him
for the happiness of him
for reconstruction’s success
her own progress somewhere stalled
waiting to be watered
as she sipped tea from the mug which warmed her hand,
stared past leaves at dragging sunlight,
and absorbed the vastness of empty sky,
she quietly urged for an era
where frightened hearts would be allowed
to face the fears they run from.
she wants to live,
her brain restricts her like clutter blocks her path.
she lies in the remnants of dust and whisper
exhales frustration through bone-dry lips.
lack of moisture reminds her as she endures
to sprinkle water over succulents
for she is determined to nurture the color of something
even if she cannot drag herself from the gray.
heart ripe with tremor
eyes sealed yearning
breath of a lover, infinite
it echoes through the hum
worn in our truth
boundless in myth.
lips dilute his name
muddled spell wearied
linger near tips of teeth
it slumbers in the crook under tongue
diminished when spoken
overflowing in silence.
yet still,
in the drought of summer,
his absence shakes me
like a vowed tempest
kept under his thumb
do not fear gods hand
for his palm is smooth
it is moonstone
resting beneath lake.
do not fear the wrath
of disciples lead astray
down paths searing in flame
into mouth of evils keeper.
do not fear inevitable end
solitude beyond reach
astray from the salvation
you were promised.
but you may fear,
down the depths of your being,
lack of trust in thyself
the preached indifference leaving fathers lips
for what is the purpose of ownership
if ones life belongs to god?
I’d never heard sirens
come from the mouth
of a girl tall and flushed
like the beer she’d drink
to calm her nerves
before it was her turn.
and I’d never seen past
blurred lyrics on a screen
her fluent hand
hold the mic impassioned
as the final line of “Baby Come Back”,
revised into one extended vowel,
left her open mouth
and met me where I sunk,
like a submarine in choppy waters,
away from her vocal wobble
and into the beaten sofa.
I had a man who hit me. He was the father of my siblings, the husband of my mother, the force which drove me down onto my back in trembling fear. From the floor of my room I wrote him pleading letters. He crinkled his nose at my chicken scrawl. He crinkled the loose leaf in his palm. He demanded I rewrite them because a good girl writes well. A good girl practices. A good girl rewrites, rewrites, is rewritten to do things the right way. His way.
I had a man who owned me. He was the looming image of leather lingering before I slept. His hands were broad to hold the belt, yet I once saw them toss my sister to the air and catch her
the world tightens in my chest
“think of the suns submergence
– it never falters”
below it sinks to admire the horizon,
catch its breath,
you push my head from your shoulders
to rest it on the day.
is it certainty we take for granted?
floundering after the unknown,
when facts are opinion after time,
nature in their specifics
mourning, obscuring,
sending the same tasks
to lie at your feet day after day.
the world expands inside my mouth
”think of the moon as it has risen
– never lacking”
above it ascends to embellish our faults
release a sigh,
you rush to the corners of the doorstep
She ran her fingers through the water, disrupting the moon-reflecting glitter which graced the waves. Drops of luminescence clung to her eyelids as she floated and gazed at the auroral stars she dedicated her life to. The universe beamed into her through the dark of her iris and gathered somewhere amongst her mind to be remembered in vivid image. Every few moments of recollection she moved smoothly across the shimmering sea in a flick of motion. The hue of her tail was a deep mahogany like the wood of the telescope she grasped gently in her hand. Opaque collections of bokeh color adorned the curves of her scales. Mint green, baby bl
the ocean moves
crashing like the soul in her
flesh, the soft wood,
devoured by flame.
you can see her in the mossy rock
feel her in salt which coats your skin
speak her name with wet tongue
into mute skies
dripping with her absence.
take petals from her mouth
slip note under nose,
smell blood of many years.
you can hold her chilled hand
as spring shudders on the pathway
blows winds past the sea
to witness loss at his prime
beneath the pitted grass.
he said to her,
“not every man is the same”
yet she recounts
feeling the same touch through different hands
the same kiss through different mouths
the same lucid exclamation of infatuation leave the mind of each
who bedded her
who traced her
who slipped familiar fingers inside to explore a wet tundra of dream.
not every man is the same,
yet they all crave her body.
the same longing buried below the surface of their stare
the same begging crystallized in word
the same disregard for her emotion
for her love
for the tender which makes her.
not every man is the same,
but they begin to blend like paint water.
muddled and murky
too
she could feel confusion
lapping up her jaw
coating her tongue
settling timidly in the pit of her throat
like a few splashed droplets
before the turbulent storm
rather than anger she worried
for the health of him
for the happiness of him
for reconstruction’s success
her own progress somewhere stalled
waiting to be watered
as she sipped tea from the mug which warmed her hand,
stared past leaves at dragging sunlight,
and absorbed the vastness of empty sky,
she quietly urged for an era
where frightened hearts would be allowed
to face the fears they run from.
she wants to live,
her brain restricts her like clutter blocks her path.
she lies in the remnants of dust and whisper
exhales frustration through bone-dry lips.
lack of moisture reminds her as she endures
to sprinkle water over succulents
for she is determined to nurture the color of something
even if she cannot drag herself from the gray.
heart ripe with tremor
eyes sealed yearning
breath of a lover, infinite
it echoes through the hum
worn in our truth
boundless in myth.
lips dilute his name
muddled spell wearied
linger near tips of teeth
it slumbers in the crook under tongue
diminished when spoken
overflowing in silence.
yet still,
in the drought of summer,
his absence shakes me
like a vowed tempest
kept under his thumb
do not fear gods hand
for his palm is smooth
it is moonstone
resting beneath lake.
do not fear the wrath
of disciples lead astray
down paths searing in flame
into mouth of evils keeper.
do not fear inevitable end
solitude beyond reach
astray from the salvation
you were promised.
but you may fear,
down the depths of your being,
lack of trust in thyself
the preached indifference leaving fathers lips
for what is the purpose of ownership
if ones life belongs to god?